FORGIVENESS is the Answer

It’s been a while since the last time I write about the message of God to me. During those times I am struggling.  Questions starts to bother me, questions like “am I still doing the right thing?”  The guilt starts to consume me.  Doubts creep to my heart.  The feeling of hopelessness was present.  Why these things happened?  Because I happened to read a verse in the bible saying;

Forgiveness

But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that you’re Father in heaven will forgive your sins too.

Mark 11:25 [NLT]

Everything went black. Everything I knew about God begins to falter and it really saddened me.  I was really afraid of what’s happening of what might become of me if I lose it all.

You might be wondering why I am feeling that way.  I happened to have a grudge to a person for seven years.  Imagine seven long years; I did a very good job of taking good care of that feeling.  For seven years I cultivated the seed of bitterness, imprisoned myself in the cell of anger and anxiety, and retribution becomes my passion.  That’s why the moment I happen to read the verse it really troubles me.  I don’t know why I’m so afraid of letting it go until one day God made his way through my heart.  How?  Last April 8, 9, and 10, 2011 I joined an Encounter activity.  The activity was really great, it taught me a lot of stuff that I never thought existed. 

Upon the activity I realized how much God loved me for He never gave up on me during those seven years of darkness.  He tried to reach out to me only I was blinded by my anger and fear.  I learned that God is indeed a kind, loving, generous, and forgiving God.  I already knew that God sent his only son to save those who are lost but that night was really amazing because that fact really hit me straight in the heart.  I realized how much His only son Jesus suffered for us to be saved and the moment Jesus died on the cross everything on earth was instantly cleansed.  The Lord forgave us the moment His son offered his own life and that’s when I realized that if God can forgive the sin of the world, who am I then to keep a grudge against someone?  Right then and their, my heart has been opened wide and I decided to gave up everything and let him took control over me.  God cleansed me, softened my hardened heart, took the darkness away from me, and instantly cured me.  Now, I’m free of doubts, fear, vengeance, anger, anxiety, and anything negative because God has cleansed me and my faith will never be shaken again because I know now how great to be the daughter of the Almighty Creator. 

Thank you Lord for the freedom you have given me.  I can finally pray to you with all my heart.  Forgiveness is the answer to all the pains I have been feeling during those dark seven long years.  Let us all learn to forgive. :)

Feeding those who are HUNGRY

Feeding the Hungry

I just finished the Book of Matthew and I am now reading the Book of Mark.  Hhhmmnn, both books have the same context but the book of Mark focuses on Jesus as a servant to his father and to the people.  Anyway, I am writing this because I wanted to share this particular verse to you guys.  I had read it in the book of Matthew but I didn’t bother about it until now and I don’t know why just now.  The verse goes like this;

“If I send them home hungry, they will faint along the way.  For some of them have come a long distance.”

                                                   

Mark 8:3

This is a part of what Jesus said to his disciples before he fed the four thousand people with him during that time.   You might say “What’s with the verse?” or “It’s just have a literal meaning”.  Hhhmmmn, maybe to some it is a very simple verse with a very simple meaning.  I knew it because this was exactly my reaction upon my first encounter with the verse in the book of Matthew but I just realize something deeper with it and it goes like this:

“If I send them home hungry…”, “them” refers to us who are hungry, hungry of God’s wisdom.  Hungry of God’s teaching, of God’s goodness, and all that is about God.  That’s why maybe God gave us the Sabbath day because He wanted to feed us, to feed our heart and soul, to make us full of God’s wisdom and goodness because only through this shall we become strong.  Strong in faith, that no matter what kind of difficulties we are facing our faith in Him shall never ever “faint”.  The road to Him is not as smooth as you think it is; there are a lot of trials that awaits us, without our faith in Him we will never survive.  Therefore let us make our selves “full” so EAT EAT EAT.  :D 

Salt and Light

Have you read the Holy Bible lately? hhhhmmmmnnn... You might be wondering why i asked the question, right? Well, im doing bible reading recently as part of my newly renewed commitment to the Lord.  A particular verses in the holy bible really strikes  me down my spine, it goes like this:

"You are the Salt of the earth.  But what good is salt if it has lost its flavor? Can you make it salty again? It will be thrown out and trampled underfoot as worthless.

You are the Light of the world-like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.  No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket.  Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house."  

Matthew 5:13-15 [NLT]

After I finished reading it I smiled and said to my self “odd comparison” but I knew that there is something more to it so what I did was I read it over and over and again and again until I finally understand what the passage meant.  I just don’t know if we have the same understanding of the passage but as for me it goes like this:

We as His servants are being compared to the Salt.  The passage said "what good is salt if it has lost its flavor?" like us we are of no use to him if he can’t rely on us.  Hmmmnn, is He, the almighty creator, really relies on us? Yes, God even with his power and greatness is still relying on us.  He wants us to spread the Good News to all his people.  He wants us to help him save as many souls as we can.  You see, God is entrusting us a very important role that we need to fulfill and this is our chance of showing Him how much we value and love Him, how much we want to obey His commandments, and how much willing we are to be saved and to save others through spreading God’s goodness. 

As for the light it was compared to our good deeds. When we experienced goodness let us not keep it to ourselves alone but we need to share it to other so they too will experience His ways and when they do they will also return and honor Him. 

As an instrument of God it is our primary duty to share His will and commandments to everyone who needs it.  When we received a blessing lets also be a blessing to others.   Let us be reminded to try and to actually do share his goodness to other in our simple little ways.  Later on those simple ways will become an instrument for those who really wanted to go back to our God’s loving arms.